Bloggy New YEAR!

Wow, a completely sober New Year's Eve. I can't even remember the last time that happened on purpose. I mean there was the pregnant year, breast feeding year, then the pregnant year again, then the breast feeding year after that again. I'm sure there was another time in there that I was sick, but can't recall exactly. lol But on purpose to not have a couple. Some serious self-control there. ;)

Alas I am on day 3 of cleaning. We've taken 2 car loads to goodwill and I'm ready to load it back up as soon as he gets home from the gym. We are so boring this weekend. His friends couldn't believe we didn't come over last night, but I didn't want to go anywhere. I'm bound and determined to get this damn house cleaned up. The kitchen is pretty much done now. I need to clean out all the cupboards themselves, but that is just too big a project for me right now. So I'm moving down the hall to the bathroom. I HATE HOUSEWORK! And I seriously hate cleaning bathrooms. My hands feel like sand paper after using chemicals for 3 days. :( Oh well, it will be worth it when I can work on my biz next week with no feelings of guilt.

On a better note, we finally switched the dvd players around so we can watch movies. The one attached to my big screen keeps skipping and stopping. Such a pisser. So hubby switched the bedroom out and we've watched Coneheads this morning. Now my kids have put my Strange Brew in and we are watching that. lolol Good grief I need to walk away and getting cleaning done!

Happy New Year!

Headache

So many reasons why I could have a headache I just don't know where to start. First, I probably had too much caffeine this morning and didn't get enough water until later in the afternoon. Which it's only 4 here now, so it's not like it was that late. lol Second, I'm cleaning. I mean CLEANING! I haven't washed the tops of the cupboards for a couple of years and it's nasty. I'm allergic to dust so go figure I have a headache. Then I figured maybe it was cause my caffeine had worn off. So I just had a few glasses of diet coke. K, I had lots of diet coke. But I'm cleaning for god sakes and I hate housework. HATE HOUSEWORK!

But I'm sure the real reason I have a headache is the reason why I am cleaning to begin with. Yes, it all started with an argument before we even got out of bed this morning. Wonderful huh? I know, gotta love those. I'm too private (I know that shocks you) to put it all in here. Who knows if anyone around locally is reading this. lol But suffice it to say, it got me doing dishes immediately after getting up. After I checked emails of course, don't let's be stupid. That lead to cleaning counters. Which led to trying to clean out the oven. Gave up on that sticky mess, but at least I got the chunks off. Next thing I know I'm on my hands and knees washing the floor. WTF!!! Boy that pissed me off that it had let to that. lol

Now I am half way through cleaning off the gunk from the top of the cupboards. I hope this is the last time I have to do it before we move out of here. No, we haven't sold the house, but I want to. ;)

Alas, my headache is getting a little better now. Funny how venting will do that. It's almost 5 o'clock here, let alone somewhere. I'm going to do this next section of cupboards and then crack one open. Ahhhh, sounds so good right now. So much crap in here is going to goodwill it's not funny!

Ok, it's back. My son just asked if his friend could spend the night and my daughter wants to spend the night at hubby's friends house. ARGHHHH, I've already told why I don't want her down there. I can't stand his stupid bitch of a wife and I don't want my daughter around her. Good grief, that's another 10 posts in itself.

The extra bedroom may end up cleaned today too. It's going to be a very long night!

Ahh, the christmas hangover

The weekend's been great, but now I've got a stuffed up head and a headache. I'm sure it's just the let-down from the holidays. Just in case I took a little nap today and I just grabbed a coffee. So what if I won't sleep tonight? :)

Christmas was super good to me. I was surprised as hell to find the family had bought me a 19" flat screen monitor. Holy cow this thing is huge. I'm in heaven. lol Not to mention the fact that I couldn't get in trouble for surfing the net all day yesterday. I had to play with my new toy after all!

Besides that I got a heart rate monitor to use with my clients, gift certificate to the running shoe store here locally with a bunch of other goodies in it. The movie strange brew and the new gwen stefani cd. Strange Brew is my all time fav movie and I only had it on vhs. The new gwenny cd is good, but I'm a little disappointed in how few dance tunes are on it. Fun house cleaning cd though. Oh wait, what am I saying? I don't clean my house.

The kids seemed to be flying high with their stuff. They still are. lol On Christmas Eve we started watching a Christmas Story which was very appropriate. Hubby bought air soft pellet guns for the two of them for Christmas. So all day yesterday we kept telling him not to shoot his eye out. lol

Daughter is happy that Santa brought her a gamecube. Super Mario Kart is her favorite game, so now she can play it to her hearts content. Not to mention the sweet skateboard Daddy picked out for her. ;) They've already gotten to the age that everything is expensive. Or maybe they just take after us? roflmao We were super impressed with their lists though, cause they don't just have big ticket items on them. Heck, sons list had new shoes and sweatpants on it. Boy my kids are awesome.

I'm trying to figure out when we can get up to go boarding. Hubby said he'd be cranky no matter when we go since we won't be taking him. lol Oh well, he can't go this season and there's no reason we shouldn't! Crystal mountain got 11" over Christmas Eve and it's supposed to totally dump up there all week! I think Friday sounds like a good day to me.

Damn I drank my coffee while typing this and now there is no more. Guess I better go find some a Diet Coke or something. My headache is still here. :( Hmm, maybe a tylenol would work better.

Alright, off to work on work stuff...

Been tagged

Well this may be difficult to come up with 5 things at all. I'm not too private of a person. lmao Good thing I can keep this tab open and think about it for a few hours.

My friend Retta hit me in the middle of the night with this one. I went to bed late, so she must have been holding it in laughing as we were chatting through the night. lol So here's to finding something interesting that you don't know!

1. I've had the same best friend for almost a quarter century. Even though she moved out of town, we remained good friends growing up.

2. I have a tattoo of a ladybug with some daisies. It's just the first of many, but I can't seem to justify the money to go get the others right now. lol

3. St. Patty's day is my second favorite holiday. Green is my favorite color and I'm Irish, what can I say. Oh then to top it off it was the first real date hubby and I went on. ;)

4. I have a turtle that is a bigger bitch than I am. I fill up her water and she immediately dumps it out and stares at me. Then in the middle of the night when she's thirsty, she pushes the water bin against the glass. OVER AND OVER AND OVER...

5. I was one of those odd little girls that actually had a pony. lol We were poor, but we got him for a very low price from one of my Dad's friend. For all those little girls that want a pony, DON'T. They are a lot of work unless you have the stable hands to take care of them for you. lmao

k, I hit 5 and that was difficult. lol Now here's 5 people that have to do it!
Lauren
Carrie
Beth
Dianne
Kara and Anita

Too Tired

Well I'm too tired to be posting, but I'm on a freakin' mission and must finish it. I had to post to all 4 of my blogs and then the 2 that I post to occasionally TODAY. And this means that I have completed my mission. I've left this blog until last cause this is my easiest blog. But alas, I was up way to late last night and lost my mojo now.

I got to stay home today since work asked me to leave yesterday. 2 days earlier than I'd planned on, but hey, being home is much better for the holidays. lol So I had a big list of all the things I wanted done and I did a bunch of them. Woohoo me! Vaccuuming, dishes, and webstuff. I'll hit the rest of it tomorrow.

I knew I was going to be working online so I let the kids each have a friend over for the night. We even went and got movies. Well hell if they aren't all wound up! So instead of having 2 kids driving me crazy running and wrestling, I have had 4. WTF was I thinking? Aha, couldn't think. PMS and not enough sleep. I can not be held responsible for my own stupidity.

Changes at work

Well the bomb has to have been dropped at work, but my friend hasn't called me yet. I feel bad not telling her ahead of time, but he asked me not to and I feel bad enough that I'd talked to who I had about it. I'm no longer working the crazy schedule. I will now be working whatever schedule I set at the new gym! YIPPEE for me and my family. Money will probably be tight as we adjust, but I know I will see it come in. We are sitting ok right now for bills and I have complete confidence that I'm doing the right thing.

So the new gym is going to be fun. I get to set my own appointments. Don't have to be there if I don't have any appointments. I literally, have no boss. They just ask me to do some free workouts showing new members how to use the equipment correctly, once a week. Such a sweet trade. Since I want to meet all the members anyway. That is how you get new clients. lol Win, win.

I can't wait to be a part of my own community again. Be a part of my friends lives again. But most of all, be around for my family.

So here's to total self-employment!

Bleh

I gotta find some energy. Maybe it's time for a doctors visit. I'm just in an awful funk and have no idea how to get out of it. It would probably help to get a good-full nights sleep. I'll try that tonight first.

Good day

So not much to report right now. Life is going really well and I don't want to jinx it by talking about it. lol We have lots in the works in the family and within the next week I'll post. But there's just no telling who is reading this in my little world.

I have a jam packed day off tomorrow as usual. Fitting in lots of web work, but this house is a sty and needs cleaning. Then my daughter made honor roll! Huge deal! So I'm going to the assembly tomorrow for that. And stopping at the gym on the way home. I love the new gym, it takes away all my stupid excuses.

Am I sarcastic?

You're Totally Sarcastic

You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny. Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it. And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.

How Sarcastic Are You?

New day

I started the day off right by going to the new gym. I'm not used to the equipment not being the top of the line, but I love that I can go whenever I want. I hit the weights hard like old days and I'm sticking with that plan cause it makes me feel good. If I don't lose all the weight, so be it. I'll be happy and a little bigger. lol

Then went and grabbed movies and sushi. YUMMMMY! Ordered a different one and it was the bomb baby.

Got home to a voicemail that the fire chief wanted hubby to give him a call. He did a good job of disguising if it was good news or bad news. Hubby of course wasn't answering his phone at work so had to wait. Not long though cause they got off work early for the Christmas party tonight. See, there are no coincidences and I do notice how all of them line up cause I'm looking for them. lol And I say thank you after them as well.

ANYWAY, I ramble. Me? Really? OK, you want to know what happened with the phone call? They offered him a job. It's conditional on getting through the background check and the medical eval, but those won't be a problem. Our credit history is the only thing we worry about cause it sucks. But we have never filed bankruptcy, we are doing the honorable thing and paying off our stupidity from youth. SO hubby will be a paid fireman next year. I'm so proud of him! He's worked really hard and has wanted this really bad. It will be amazing to see him happy to go to work. lol

Bad place right now

Well I can remember being at this point before. It has been a few years now, but I understand what's happening. I'm burnt out again. I knew it was going to happen, but I didn't know it would hit all at once. I got 10 hours of sleep and only got up once cause I was hoping it was snowing and not raining. lol So I should be refreshed right? Nope, big black bags under my eyes and no energy.

Lots of little stuff has gone down this week and none of it was very big or life threatening. But I just can't deal with any of it right now. I think last night was the final straw when I had to leave work early cause the kids had been home for too long alone.

Well it's off to work again right now. I have tomorrow off thankfully. I didn't get to write all I wanted, so I'll revisit this later tonight. I do have some things in the works to make a change, but that will mean some stress while we pay bills during the transition. :(

I'M SO BURNT OUT!!!

REVISITING:
Well I did a full 12 hours at work yesterday. Hmmm, any wonder why I'm burnt out? No, there is no wondering. I know and am just waiting for the transition to come full circle. Yesterday sucked and I didn't get back on here. I didn't even have the energy to watch tv and we know that is a sad state of affairs when that happens.

But I hate to leave focus on negatives, so I'll tell the happy story of coming home last night. Everyone was asleep of course by the time I got home and I was throwing a pity party in my head. :) I'm good at those if you ever need ideas. I get towards the front door and see that they put the Christmas wreath up, but notice that there's no ribbon on it. Odd, but thought maybe it looked like crap so they took it off. Nope, I totally forgot that hubby ordered a wreath and centerpiece from a friends kid. So I stood there with my face buried in the evergreens. It was heavenly. Brought tears to my eyes and was exactly what I needed to finish off the night in a better state of mind. Enough about yesterday, I'm going to start a new post about today!

SNOW!

Man oh man do I want to be on the mountain. We drove over yesterday and the pass was full of snow with only one of the resorts open. But our fav. resort www.skicrystal.com has been open for over a week now. They got over 69" in the last week alone! AHHHHH, me want to be there.

It even snowed here this morning. It's very wet and will be gone by mid day if even that cause the kids are playing with it all. lol But it's crazy that we've gotten a dusting this early. It's supposed to be a great season and this just may be proof.

I'm sure they are right about it being a hard core season. Hubby won't be going since eh may be on probation for his new job. It's taken him 5 years to get hired on and the last thing we want is for him to get an injury playing. I'm going to have to take the kids up by myself this year. :( Won't be as much fun, but we'll make it work. I just gotta find a friend to go with me. lol I don't know any other women that board or that will get up as early as we do so we can be first. Stupid girls!

Where'd today go?

Well I've done a lot of nothing today, but I've been really good at it. I made breakfast, for myself. Kids were gone and hubby didn't want any. I stood my ground and said no I didn't want to go to his buddies house. It would have been fun, but I didn't want to go anywhere. I did mask my face and shave, so that's cool. Oh and took a long shower also. lol

I've advertised on a site with all 4 sites and searched around on here a lot. roflmao But realistically I haven't done all that I wanted to. Oh, I've blogged on 2 of my accounts, so that is really good. AND I found this really cool free mom makeover ebook and posted it to everyone I know. lol DUH, I forgot to post it here, so I'll get it on here for you later.

I'm redoing a lot in the coming weeks. I'm overworked and underpaid. Oh wait, that's over 3/4 of America. But seriously. I could have 9 clients a month and make the money I want. That would be working 18 hours a week. Instead of working 45-50 hours a week and making half the money I want. Hmmm, is there a choice? Fuckin' A NO!

Lost today

I've had so much on my mind and so much to do, that today just skipped past me. But, a huge thing happened. My desk is clean! Also I went and reorganized my books and notebooks from school and many notebooks I have for biz. I'll try to keep track of how long it takes for me to destroy the desk. It's usually a few days, but since I'm gone most of the time now, maybe I can make it last a week. lol

I still have a little pile next to me that needs to be put in appropriate places. But with all the dust, I'm beat. Allergies suck! Oh and I vaccumed so that's not helping.

I've been going through a lot of biz stuff lately and I hope it all calms down soon. Nothing to post about for it yet cause the internet world is small, but some changes are in the works.

On a very sad front. I left a comment on the BuckCherry myspace last night. Woke up this morning to a friends invite to Josh Todd's personal myspace. WAHHHHH, what happened? This crazy bitch is a nosy bitch and wants to know WTF! K, so Josh's new album


Is out. It sounds great from the spots I listened to on myspace and I can't wait to get it. But, where's Keith? Some of us just gotta know! If he's doing something else too, then I want that cd. So I was bummed when I saw the new album cause it leads me to believe that they are no more. Hopefully that isn't the case, but yeah right.

Well off to eat dinner and put the rest of these papers where they belong before I work on sites.

still feeling icky

Well maybe I over did it yesterday. I was able to keep food down by Sat. evening, and was starving yesterday, but now my tummy hurts and I have a headache. :( I have to go to work today, can't afford another day off. Plus, I don't know what is on my schedule today. I feel really bad for everyone that I did a no show with on Sat. But unfortunately, I didn't care on Sat. I would have had to be awake for more than a few minutes to care. lol

So no working out today. That is 4 days in a row. But I'm sure I lost weight because of the flu, so we'll see how much in a little while.

Oh to top it off, we had a really bad windstorm come through last night and I didn't get any sleep. That helped me a lot. NOT!!! Off to slop on some make-up and get out of here. I hate being responsible somedays. (sniffle, poor me, sniffle)

Carry-over from yesterday

Yesterday started off really, really well. I went to a corporate wellness expo and talked to a bunch of cool people and even made some new sales. So it was great. Then along came time for the kids to get home from school and my Mom to pick them up. They had half day and this was the third one in a row. I'm not going to go into what happened, cause I really only know one side of the story, but it was bad. WTF am I supposed to do over the cell phone? Especially when I said I need to talk to him and I hear my Mom ask him if he wants to talk to me. WTF???????!!!!!!!!!!!! You do not ask the 8 year old if he wants to talk to him Mom when you are having a problem. You TELL the 8 year old that his Mom wants to talk to him. Needless to say, after he hung up on me everything got worse for them.

So I've only been given what happened by the 8 year old and we talked about it for 1/2 an hour last night. He and I understand why it happened, but it's still not ok for him to get violent. He needs to eat every 2-3 hours or his emotions get out of control for him. Here at the house we haven't had a problem with it in about 2 years. But I forget that others don't fully understand how important it is for him to eat since they haven't been witness to the mood swing that can happen.

I said my nephew could come over today, forgot I said that. lol But kind of figured it wouldn't happen becuase Mom wouldn't want to deal with whatever happened. No such luck. So she asks if hubby told me what happened and I said no, because we only saw each other for a few minutes last night, but that son and I had talked about what happened and what needed to happen in the future so it wouldn't happen. She then proceeds to tell me that it's not ok for him to lay hands on people in anger. NO SHIT!

She proceeds to tell me some more about how it's not ok and I explain the whole food situation and how that doesn't make it ok, but the fact that he really loses his control. I think this is about when the conversation got me cranky and defensive.

Her: "he needs to understand that it's not ok".
me: "he does understand"
her: "well he obviously doesn't"
me: "if you ask him right now he will tell you it's not ok"
repeat a few times


I tell her that he does know right now if you talk to him about how wrong it is, but that he gets so frustrated after he hasn't eaten that he can't use that good judgement he has. BLah, blah, it's not ok. I finally asked her how she wanted me to handle it differently. Does she want me to beat him? No of course not, but wtf does she want me to do differently than what I did? I didn't get an answer about what I should do differently. This is how living in that house was, no wonder why I moved out 2 days after graduation. Nothing I've ever done is good enough. Which is fucking ironic cause I'm not the single parent that has never moved out and is 30 years old! Don't tell me how to raise a son, you fucked up with yours! Oh oh, I'm getting super pissed now. Maybe it's time for me to eat?

I guess hubby and I will have to talk about it tonight and ruin our evening. I can't have this hanging over me now and I want to hear what my Mom's side of the story wass. I just didn't want to hear it from her this morning. I'm sure I should have asked, but just wasn't up for it. The conversation was long enough as it was.

On a great note, hubby passed the first fire dept. test and will move on to the other tests now. That was a major accomplishment and another reason why I didn't want to talk about the issue last night. It was supposed to be a night to celebrate. It's only 11am and I want a martini bad now!

Oh and it all that isn't enough. My mother lovin' hosting won't let me update either site. I rarely have time to do updates, so to do them and then not be able to update it sucks! I can't put my newsletters out either until I get those updates online. WAHHH, let's do over!

working a sunday ;(

Well it can't be helped. Or I guess it could be, but I want a piece of the money. lol Tonight is a big fundraising event at the mall and our gym is hosting the pre-party for all the shoppers. So I'm off to work tonight from 5-11pm. UGH! Tomorrow is going to be a long day with such little sleep, but if I get a piece of the 40-50 memberships that sign up it will be worth it.

The main problem is I have a new committment to working out, so after work I am going to do 20 min. of cardio. I figure I may as well, everyone will be asleep when I get home anyway. So that gets me home sometime around midnight. Then back up again in the morning at 6 to get kids off to school and get ready to go to work again. :( It will all be good. I also have to leave work early wed. and thurs. because of conferences, so the extra hours today work out.

This next commission check will be Christmas and I have to remind myself of that. lol

Right now I'm doing the everlovin' laundry. I knew I should have done my load of pants last night. One pair isn't supposed to be dried in the dryer, but I'm going to have to anyway cause I want to wear them tonight.

Off to make lists of chores for the kids. They aren't picking up the slack this week. Does anyone else have the annoying knats in the house? I know they are always around this time of year, but they still drive me crazy! Time to deep clean the house so they will die sooner. Off to get ready for work and watch The Break Up.

Unproductive

Not sure what's up, but I've been so scatter brained today. And I guess it actually has been more this week than just today. I have no idea what is up. I'm not normaly like this and if I am it's only for a day at most. I have no memory right now for the little stuff. One of those "if my head wasn't attached..." kind of feelings. lol

I'm sure it will be better tomorrow. When I was at work today it was actually better than normal. Of course I was only supposed to be at work to work out, but there was a new joiner that needed a tour and I figured why not make some money while I'm there. lol So I toured him with no make-up, messy hair in a ponytail and my workout clothes on. He still joined with me looking so scary. He must be committed to losing the weight. rofl OH and btw, I didn't steal a sale from one of the trainers that was working today. The receptionist had called 3 times to get someone when I walked in the door. It was just karma that I got there at the right time.

So today though. I had a bunch of stuff I really wanted to get done today, but couldn't focus on any one thing. I had a bunch of different windows open on the computer and never really finished any of the projects. I think tomorrow I will work on prioritizing my list while I'm at work. Then I will hit one thing hard on Sunday morning and finish it. Newsletters are probably the biggest one to hit. So I'll put those first and get them out asap.

k, better go and get some sleep. It's a long day tomorrow!

up to late

[gasp]Like that's a shocker. I'm usually sitting here too late with my farting dog under my feet!

But I really meant to go to bed around 9:30 tonight. I am going to blame it on Loretta. Yes, that's the problem. I don't get to talk to friends and she is online chatting with me right now, so it's her fault. roflmao

I have to be alert at work at 8am and I know I won't be very alert right now. I will have to grab money from hubbies wallet for the morning. I see a very large sugar-free rockstar in my future. lol

Many new ideas are flowing for my scrapsite and it's pretty exciting! If you are a digi kit designer wanna-be, then send me a line. Just put kit designer in the sigline so I see it. :) I'm really looking forward to working with some other home-based Mom's that want to make some extra cash. Oh and if you'd like to moderate some message boards please also send me a line!

Miss my old blog

I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm missing my WP blog tonight. I'm very thankful that I got a bunch of the posts pulled out of space. But I actually miss the better organization of WP. That's saying a lot for this unorganized soul!

So I'm hoping that blogger beta will sharpen up and let me sort by catagorie soon! I sent it off in my comments when they asked. lol